Thursday, November 26, 2009
Sweet Poison. ♥
11:55 PM
Sweet Poison."You, me and us."Its been almost a week mum is away.So far so good just alil hiccup here and there and im gladwith the help of my siblings, they try to be there unconditionally.And of cos, sis have been a great help to me. :)I heard over the news that its pouring pretty heavily in mekkah.Its like flood is here and there. Haiz!I hope that mum is s safe wherever she's and insya'allah HE will protect her.And i tried my very best not to make her worry abt things here.And of coz, it will be weird without her on Hari Raya.But well, she gota do what she gota do.May she have a safe and belssing journey.And i have to say, so far my friends have been my support pillow.Checking up on me here and there and try to be sure in doing good.How can i not love them right? :)
At certain point you came to realise who are you real friend is,
the one who will walk with you thru the good and bad.
The one who will be ur should when u need one.
The one who will always worry and pray for ur safety.
Therefore i appreciate them more each and everyday
and may Allah bless them with their good deeds. Amin.
Im super tired now and i have so much to say,
perhaps i save it for tomorrow.
I need to have my sleep badly or im going to fall sick. :(
To everyone, salam aidiladha.
May it be a bless and meaningful one.
Till den, nytz. :)))
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Temporary Goodbye. ♥
11:08 PM
Temporary Goodbye.
"Good things will happen to good people..."
I cant belief that in few days time mum will be leaving for Haj
and that means im home alone with bro.
Well, more of i will take care of him instead of him taking care of me.
I feel that it's all too soon.
I have to hold all the responsibilities alone at home.
Gosh! Pls save save me.
And to add on, my reliable brother will be leaving to Dubai
for holidays for 10 days. Darn!
Mum been nagging and keep telling me to stay at home
when she is not around and to be sure everything is in place.
Perhaps i sld since i wana save some money. Haha!
I hope she will have a safe journey.
May she be bless with the good things and may Allah guide her
and bless her with a good health when she is there.
I know she has problem with her leg but insya'allah,
Allah is almighty and he will protect her and give her all the spirit. :)
Amin amin amin.
To put that aside, someting really touch my heart with
what she said to me.
Today Diki and Naha came to my house.
After they made their way home me and mum had a lil convo.
She knows abt what happened to Naha's dad and insya'allah
she told me that she'll have her little prayer for him there.
And for Diki this is the first time she asked me who is he.
Like he came here few times but this time i think because we all
sit in my room that make mum noticed him.
I told her abt his background and all,
like what is revolve around his life
and she said something suprising...
She said "Tell him, if anything happens.. do look up to her as a mum too.."
wahhhhh! i was shock of cos. Like coming from my mum. hahha!
Like mum is a pretty soft hearted person so she dnt like the idea
of seeing how someone else suffer.
Perhaps she's a mum that make her feel for someone
who is not even her own child.
For that i salute my mum.. weeeewiiit!
She has been backing me up alot lately, even abt the case of the ex.
When weird qns was being asked at my cuz wedding,
she stood up for me and answer with a smile.
She even said that why didnt i introduced her to the ex.
OMG! she wants to see him even she knows the fact he's married.
Aiyoyoyo! But i just didnt cos i tinks that its all in the past.
She knows what reli revolve like the reasons for the break up.
Im not being protective of the ex just that he has his own life.
Its all in the past just let it be remain that way. :)
Well, i bet silence is an acknowledgement. hahhha!
She watch me grow so even without saying she knows
me better den anyone does.
She knows how buruk i can merajok and how mad i can be.
Tsskkkkk! hahhah!
So this few this days, let me cherish the time with her.
I cld never ask for anything more just a safe jorney for her
and i hope to see her coming back as
HJH RAHIMAH SYED ALI. :))
Sunday, November 15, 2009
♥
10:33 PM
The Art of Letting go.
"The past, present and future..."
One of the reason people get sentimental
it's because, memories are the only things that don't change
so when everything else does...
there are things in life that you can't hold
on forever, no matter how much you fight for it.
Sometimes destiny isn't always good, its becomes playful.
when you meet someone you learned to love,
you thought that it was destiny who made your path cross.
but what if making your path cross is just a part of the game
that the playful destiny create?
making you realize in the end that the person you
thought that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay..
but only destined to make you feel love and leave you
when you've really fallen.
It's not easy to state a reason when you decided
to leave your love.
Some might think it's just an excuse...
some might not actually believe...
some will blame you...
some might even be mad at you...
What they don't see is the fact that....
it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't
deserve to be hurt...
especially when you can't actually state the reason why you have to leave...
You can never own something that was never yours...
so let's stop gripping on thing we expect to last forever...
nothing lasts forever. forever is a lie.
everything is transitory.
so while you have something in your hand,
put in mind that it's just borrowed...
so that someday when it's gone,
it won't take you eternity just to let it go.
When your feelings get strong for someone,
its always wise to stop for a while and give your heart
a time to breathe...
a time to use your mind to weight a situation
based on reason not on emotion.
because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love
while the other wants nothing more than friendship...
Love can sometimes be magic...
but magic can sometimes be an illusion...
there are times when we wish that we was limited to certain emotions...
so that we will never have to experienced pain,
never feel betrayed or disappointed
and never get our fragile heart broken...
But the same thing means that we will never know
how it feels to love and be loved in return...
the thought of it kinda scares us...
to have a heart that's whole but numb
or a heart that's broken but real...
Someday we'll all be looking back to those days
we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight.
maybe when that time comes, we'll be laughing
at our old dumb selves...
realizing how stupid we were to stand
up for things we knew weren't really meant for us.
but i guess learning takes time
and mistakes make one's journey fun...
life is what we make it.
love makes the world go round...
so let's live, love and take whatever pain it brings...
though its hard to wait around for something that we know
will never happen..
it's harder to stop when we know
it's everything we've always wanted...
but at the end of the day,
we are glad all this happened to us some point in our phrase of life.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
When you're gone. ♥
10:27 PM
When you're gone.
"Bitter heart oh bitter heart..."
Today another cousin of mine got married.
Well, he truely deserve it i guess and alhamdulillah his wedding
is perfectly fine. I love the decor and the food is dupper yummilicious
but since im not a big fan of wedding food, i dnt eat much thou.
To him and his newly bride,
i wish them a blessful marriage. Insya'allah. :)
It such a small world actually that my cousin got married
to my sec sch mate and now we are officially cousin.
And during this weeding event too much coincidence thou.
Met few people i know and of coz some unexpected ones.
And worst, my greatest fear attended the wedding.
Like 99.9% of me thought he wont be there but there is 1% of chances
and of cos fate decided to be on that 1%, he came.
I was sitting down and the moment i saw him i pretended not to of coz.
And he came to shake hand with the rest and when he saw me he smile.
Imagine how weird it's. He's a married man now and to look back
the last time i saw him he was still a perfect bachelor. hah!
Perhaps the next time i see him, he's a father. fuuuh!
Well, it all went fine and we do exchange words.
Like always... i cant find a reason to ignore. Darn!
Looking at him, he's all so chirpy. Im happy for him.
But well, to look deep inside perhaps its just a lie.
I duno maybe im just assuming.
Till the point we bid goodbye, i know very much i cant look at him.
I just said bye and i turn my back and walk away.
As much as i think im ok but partly its still hard.
Maybe he's just a habit that hard to die.
I hate when he said somethng stupid, always do.
Something will snap me to the past.. ass!!! haha.
But overall its nice to see him again thou.
Im glad im strong enough to face it. hohoho!
Ouh yes!! i saw a guy i had a crush on back den during ITE days.
Gosh! he put on so much weight man. ALOT!
geeeeeezzzz!
Its monday again and it will be a buzy week.
Hope no blues this time. :)
Till den, till my next random post.
amigos.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Sexy Bitch. ♥
1:05 AM
Sexy Bitch.
"Shut up and move along."
I can't believe that is how much u wana shut me from ur world.
But i do pary hard u will never ever come back around.
I won't deny that i can't find a reason to hate you
but i guess now i learn how to.
This time you better go away.
Hearing ur name just make me go deaf.
Seeing ur face i feel like ur a total stranger.
Well hello stranger!!
FUCK THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Flu Bug. ♥
10:01 PM
Flu Bug.
It feel real shitty when i fall sick again.
It was like two weeks back when i was on MC and here i am again.
This time i was given 2days MC instead of one
and the doctor told me i need alot of rest. I overwork mysev.
Me overwork??? hahhah! Since when?
And the doctor told me something unexpected...
"You need to EXERCISE more..."
where is that coming from???
EXERCSE... omfg! noooooo.....
I will TRY to work on that but knowing how lazy i am
i guess i need extra push on that. :)))
Sore throat and blocked nose isint helping me at all.
I was feeling all restless today.
And the medication makes me one sleeping beauty.
I sleep all day long that im getting lethargic.
So tomorrow what shall i do?
I think maybe i should skip my medication
so i wont feel drowsy and a need to sleep.
Well on different note,
i WISH that someone will be there but never.
Like it sucky when u need that person most but well
that someone dnt seem to bother to ask if ur even doing ok.
This is not the first time thou.
Aiyah who cares lar. What's important
i need to be healthy again and be all crazy, agree?
I wana eat alot of stuff.
Like magnum ice-cream, potato chips, chicken fusilli,
chewy cookies from starbucks and etc etc.
I miss eating. ALOT!
Maybe due to the rain on Sat that i dnt feel well
but again i nvr kena the rain. Pelik. lol.
Till den,
till i back on my feet again to
make sure for now miss me ok. hahhah!
Nytz.
>'',<
Friday, October 23, 2009
say whos? ♥
4:37 PM
Say whos?
"You're like a melody in my head.."
Time really change who we are and used to be.
Even me, i guess im over the old phrase.
Everyday we go thru changes and we are immune to things.
We said goodbyes and hold dear to sweet old memories.
What leave each passing days was just memories for us to flashback.
But that is life, always on the go!
Perhaps we sld cherish our today and open our arms wide for tmr.
I was reading this book "Why man fall for bitches?".
I have to agree that good woman, always lost in a competition.
Maybe we sld learn to be "bitches". Haha!
Like never always to say yes to man and stand firm on our beliefs.
And as i was reading thru, man love challanges.
The harder it's for them to get within their reach, the more they want it.
So have you ever wonder why man complaint that woman love play hard to get?
And if we're to give in that easy they will take things for granted.
Darn! i don't get it.
I know i've been harsh with my words especially to people i care abt.
I know some will say, why bother?
Will you wana see the people you care about get hurt and see them hurt
even you know they are doing mistakes, u sld just close one eyes?
I totally don't believe in that.
You may hate me with my harsh words but trust me, im doing that cos i care.
I hate seeing my frens being all sappy. Gosh! That is so heartbreaking.
I would rather be a clown and see them smile. I will. :)
But i do hope when i said sumtin, think hard with the words i said.
I don't said thing out of jelousy or out of anger but because i observe.
I wana see them happy, obviously. But by not faking how i feel.
Friendship starts with honesty.
But at the end of the day its up to them if they wana listern, its their call.
Im just here to share my opinion but if one day what i said indeed is true
i will just smile and said "I told you.." Yes i am MEAN! hahhha!
Well, i've been all sick for the past few days.
Been having headache and throat infections which is really sucks.
I wish to recover fully and i was going thru google to check why
and perhaps due to stress or maybe i strained my eyes too much.
I need new lense and i need to be stress free.
I tink too much perhaps.
I wonder which idiot really suck my blood. hahhah
Ok ok i gtg.
Going off from work soon.
TGIF! and going to sleep over the weekend.
Wait! I wana have fun tomorrow. Its Saturday.
When was the last i really go out on Sat? I cant recall, darn!
Happy weekend ppl.
So here is picture of us in 2005 and 2009.
We become more biol i guess. hahah!
Check out!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Have you really love a woman ♥
12:49 AM
Have you really love a woman?
Every woman needs assurance.
They need to know if they are the ONE.
They are never just an options in a man heart.
Woman are selfish, very.
They dosent want a man who can't decide.
So to man, if u stil being indecisive of ur heart
and not sure if she is what ur heart beating for
and ur torn into places, i guess
you have yet to really love A woman.
Only when one name is ur heart beating for,
rest assure she is the ONE you wana spend ur life with.
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Song: Have you really love a woman?
by: Bryan Adams
To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?
To really love a woman
Let her hold you - til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman
You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...
